30 Day Photo Challenge Day 22

A picture of something you wish you were better at

Before I choose a picture, just want to painfully deliberate.  There are so many things we all wish we were better at. Some are silly, some vain, some profound.  For example; I wish I was better at singing, dancing, keeping the house clean, being a good friend and so on.

But, the only thing I wish for; is to be a better Mother.  My children, deserve the best of me and sometimes I fail to deliver.  In fact, quite often I fail to deliver.  I am impatient, anxious, lacking in attention.  I ignore them at times, withdrawing into my awful world of depression.  This is not what they signed up for.  I aim to work at being more patient, less anxious and mindful of the quality of time we spend together.  It may not mean more time because quantity over quality is not optimum.  It will be quality though.  Relishing the little things.   Their tiny hands, their adoring faces upturned and trusting.  Their silly giggles and moments when they seek me out for nothing more than a simple hug or reassuring smile.  

To be a better Mother, I aim to give my kids a better life. To set sturdy foundations and strong wings.  So they can fly when they choose to but return home when they need to.