Friday, April 15, 2011
Recovery and Maintenance
I had my final inpatient session with my psychiatrist last night. It is funny how I have warmed to him. Initially, I was extremely intimidated by him. It took a long time for me to firstly trust him and then to open up to him. The more I was able to trust and reveal all; the more secure and safe I felt with him. I have told him I have faith in him and will do all he suggests and give it my all.
Two sleeps and I will be home. Hopefully, for good this time. I think I am much more prepared than I was the first time I was discharged. I have a more realistic view of how to manage myself. I still have great support - that has not changed. I am more nervous but less anxious.
My psychiatrist has said take it simply, don't rush to do too much and take one day at a time. So, I plan to. I will work at keeping a mood diary, I will be mindful and I will also every day make time for myself. This time will be for me to enjoy small simple pleasures.
I will continue to attend CBT follow up. I will keep up with my blogging and my drawing. I will try and be more accessible and outgoing. I will be present for my children and husband. And, lastly I will not self-medicate.